Hello I’m Caitlin. I’m 19 years old and I’m from Sydney, Australia. I love living here, I love my family and I love my friends. I’ve had a privileged upbringing, I have never gone without or been denied anything. I’m in my first year at uni and I’m studying Comms & Media.
My life is pretty good. Bar one thing. I’m overweight. This issue travels with me every single second of my life. Not one day goes by when I don’t think of it, or it doesn’t disgust me. I have a close circle of friends from high school who I love but I would like to meet more people. My weight prevents this though because I’m always aware about people judging me for what I look like so I never engage in conversatins with anyone. I don’t have any friends at Uni and I know my standofish attitude is seen as me being rude. This is certainly not the case. I’m just not comfortable with myself. I’ve never had a real boyfriend and I’m a virgin.
My weight prevents me from going out; clubbing or to bars. I hate my body so I never go shopping because I don’t want to have to looks in a mirror. And I know people will be looking at me when I got out thinking that I shouldn’t be there.
In highschool I was friends with the “popular” girls but I was much more of a “guard dog” figure. You know, the fat & ugly girl who hangs around with the pretty skinny ones, keeping guard till a guy comes along and picks them up.
I know alot of people who say “if you’re fat you’re lazy”. But it’s not like that. Being fat for me is very much an emotional burden as well as a physical one. I can be sitting in my room doing nothing but the thought of excersing depresses me because I think I won’t have the will power of motivation to keep it up so why bother?
Anyways, I don’t want this to sound like a sop story.I’ve started this tumblr as a way to share my (hopefully) successful weight loss story with people. Maybe I could even motivate others? I’m not going to lie, I’m doing this to hopefully get encouragement off other and stay motivated. This is what I want from my life. I want to be happy with myself.
I plan to post pictures of me progress, gym schedules, eating plans and answer as many questions as you send to me.
Everything I post here will be totally factual. No names, places or situations changed. I hope you enjoy the journey but I promise I’ll be doing all the hard work :)